I should have made this list a while ago...(I hope she reads this)

First , let me apologise to Fujiko. Im so sorry for making you stay in this position for as long as you did. I hope that you can forgive me for that. Now you said that you dont want to date me until I come back. I hope that offer still stands when I get back...

ok so this is the "you can go to hell list." It consists of all the people who have fucked up my life in the past year or so, and have changed me for the worst. So lets begin shall we?

• Mom - you sent me here to this...horrible god forsaken place. If it wasn't for you, i could be at home (or preferably at Allison's house) havin a good time, in the school that i want to go to, with the girl of my dreams. but since you had to be a coward and get rid of me because you didnt know how to deal with me, she doesnt even want to talk to me, im in a horrible school that i prolly wont be able to graduate from, with a horrible father that thinks about himself more than he does his kids, in a horrible city thats worse than the one i left. And when there is a problem, you pass it on to the next person, without dealing with it, or even giving a slight solution to the problem. I mean, you wont even tell me what you want from me bring here, because the problem is, you dont even know yourself. Congradu-fucking-lations, you've won the mom of the year award.
• Dad - Ive hated you since birth. Ive never been there and now you want to be super dad. Problem is, you suck at that too. go jump off of a building
• Mom Mom - You followed behind my father and told my mom to send me here, against my better judgement. And when things went wrong you either A) Told my father B)Told my mother who told my father or C) Prayed about it and THEN told my father. Wow, way to avoid the problem at hand...
• Clayton County - You are the WORST PLACE ON THE FACE OF THE EARTH! I hope Barrack Obama nukes your sorry ass...

And we cant forget the ringleader of this heartbreak circus...

• Tori "New New" Freeman - you are the foulest form of a human being, which is a user. you use those around you and twist their emotions until your satisfied, then toss them to the side when your finished. you make your self out to be the victim when realy, your the oppressor. All the bad stuff that happens to you is either A) bullshit that you made up to make ppl feel sorry for you or B) shit thats realy your fault. And you deserve worse if its B. Unfortunately I fell for your games. And I suffered dearly. If it wasnt for you, I could have a healthy relationship, including confidence, the ability to make my spouse cheer up without having to physically be there, and not being paranoid that the other person doesnt love me anymore. Now I have to emotionally build from the ground up and then see if she even wants me back...

Well there you have it. The people who twisted me into the way I am today. I hate myself for even letting them do this to me. I can only hope that when I get back, she will still want me. If she doesnt, I dont know if i even would WANT to stay in PA anymore. It would be too painful. God I hope she reads this...

PS. Ill be in zombie mode. Ill be physically there, but emotionally/mentally ill be locked in a dark room. this is gonna suck big time...